By Ekaterina Popova
April is the anniversary of me leaving my day job…the last one ever. I quit in 2016 and haven’t looked back since.
I still remember the fresh spring air, the light pink blossoms, and the butterflies in my belly as I left the Capital One corporate building. It was exhilarating, a little bit scary, but I was ready.
As I exited the elevator, I floated past the security guard and pushed through the revolving doors one last time.
I celebrated this epic moment by getting a small tattoo of birds flying away on my arm. I was on a high that day (see photo below).
I’m so glad that I didn’t know about the challenges and heartbreak ahead LOL. Looking back, I would do it all over again a thousand times, even though things did not go as planned.
Here are some dreadful things that happened:
People I chose to work with showed their true colors.
I didn’t have any boundaries or confidence in myself.
I undervalued myself and my work.
I numbed my anxiety with wine instead of confronting issues—so many lessons.
But the rollercoaster of fear, failure, and triumph is exhilarating, and I would do it again and again.
What the past several years taught me is that we all have inner power. The support, solutions, and answers often come from within us, though it’s great to be surrounded by like-minded people too.
What I learned at the core level is that there is always a way out, a solution. You are never stuck. Failure certainly isn’t final.
In the words of Marie Forleo, “Everything is figuroutable.”
It wasn’t the wins that helped me overcome. It was the scariest moment when I thought for sure it was the end, did I find myself and my inner strength. The most challenging moments had the most valuable lessons and gems embedded in them.
I am pleased to say that these days, my art and business are a lot more stable. I don’t have such epic rollercoaster rides anymore and instead am learning to be a visionary rather than a reactive day-by-day survivor. But I thank that part of me that survived every day.
The illusion of stability or “making it” no longer serves me, and instead, I choose to be open to the flow of life, growth, and new ideas so that I don’t become stagnant. Life truly is an adventure.
Thanks for being on this journey with me. If you are taking a giant leap in your life or career, I’m cheering for you. If you are taking baby steps, I’m right there with you all the way too.
If it’s on your heart, you will figure it out. And when it feels like the end, and it’s never going to work, you are just getting to the good stuff. Pinky promise! Reply if you are working on a scary dream and share it with me! I promise you will feel better! XO